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(Ficlet) All or Nothing At All

Title:All or Nothing At All
Character: Tezuka Kunimitsu, Ueda Rie (OC)
Rating: T
Words: 704
Genre: Romance
Summary: Tezuka thought of the things occurred on his life.
Status: Complete
Note: First attempt to write on Tezuka's POV. Geh...
Disclaimer: I own the plot only.


The thought of word love never crossed Tezuka Kunimitsu's mind. At least back then, when his mind was filled with tennis, tennis and tennis. And academic stuffs. And student council duty.

His mind already full enough. There was no room for love, or what it called. Tennis is his life, and forever will be. Doing his duty whole-heartedly is the first priority. Tezuka Kunimitsu lived his life by his laws -where other people saw it as merely robotic life- until that warmth began to sneak silently inside his heart.

"My name is Ueda Rie, student council secretary. I hope we can work together from now on."

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He always done all things alone. It was much easier, and you didn't have to think about other things. It made him easier to focus and concentrate on important task.

"Ueda-san, what are you doing?"

"Accompanying you on greeting the student?" He saw her smiling sheepishly. "I think I need to know the students too. And assisting setokaichou-san, it's one of the secretary's work, right?"

He just sighed on her presence. What he didn't realize that time was, sometimes together is better than alone.

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He never thought that touching other person's fingers can sent a series of tingling feelings to his heart. What was a normal one, continued to beat faster and faster in irregular rhythm as the girl interlaced her fingers with him.

He didn't understand why, instead of pulling away, he caressed the soft fingers slowly, as if he afraid it will be broken. Wondering how with just a touch, it can made his life full of lights.

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"....Germany?"

He nodded as response to the girl. He saw it, how her eyes displayed many emotions: from surprised, shocked, to hurt and she managed to change her gaze to a normal one in just a second.

"For tennis?"

Once again, he nodded at her question. Silence were hung in the air, as he saw the girl broke into a smile, yet it looked so painful. "Please do your best."

And he never knew that saying goodbye was actually this painful.

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“Good morning.”

“Guten morgen.”

“How are you?”

“Wie geht es Ihnen?”

“Very well, thanks.”

“Danke, gut.”

“I would love to see you.”

He was an intelligent person to begin with, that's easy for him to read the meaning behind everything. He knew.

“Ich möchte gern Dich sehen”

“You are dear to me.”

He stopped for a while. His brown orbs catch the glimpse of a certain pink-haired girl sulked herself lower beneath the Germany Conversation book. A part of him wanted to smile; he felt so warm. Maybe that was how you feel when you got a certain feelings that a person you treasure actually holding you in their heart dearly.

“Sei mir lieb.”

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"Ueda Rie."

How long has it going when he finally speak that magical name? Four years? Five? Or more? It wasn't his custom to count out the time, but what surprised him was saying her name was like a double-edged sword. It was sweet yet bitter at the same time. Especially when he looked at the scene in front of him, displaying her in such a broken state.

Did he regret leaving her? He never regret choose tennis, honestly. But what was the itchy feeling lingered on his heart and began to get wider and wider as the warm girl he once knew, now turning her back against him?

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‘I want you.’

‘I know.’

‘I have always waited for you.’

'I know.’

Tezuka Kunimitsu knows everything. What keeping him in his track was his fear. It was funny, how a person like him actually can feel the fear. And he never thought that his biggest fear is to lose her.

His source of warmth.

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People said, you will never able to turn back, when you've stepped in the altar with the person you choose to be with for the rest of your life.

What Tezuka Kunimitsu know is, she always be in everywhere. In his mind. In his heart. Even when he turned his back, she still there, giving him the support and warmth, from the first time they met until now. And ever.

"I do."

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